confession: i'm a semi-stalker

i don't take that admission lightly, but i suppose it's somewhat true after the past couple of weeks...

cute guy at work makes (most) mornings interesting, but either he doesn't take hints (granted, my subtleness is often perceived as non-existant) or he's not interested.  just going to let things go as they go with that one; he's a really nice guy, quirky & passionate about unique things, but i don't know if there's really anything there except for curiosity....still, makes high school chemistry at 8am more enjoyable!

on the other hand, cute guy at pool makes afternoons of coaching MUCH more enjoyable!  tattoos, fitness-oriented (he's usually there for about 2 hrs, but isn't ripped which is completely ok), and by clearing my sinuses in the sauna after a swim i've learned that he's into scuba diving & "guitars, not cars."  looks kinda like a bad boy, but seems like a normal person.  mostly smiles have been exchanged so far & not much in terms of conversation, but it's still early on...if nothing else, he makes it more interesting to get my laps in!

i'm not seeking anything right now, just playing it by ear.  i've been asked many times in the past year or so if i'm happy, seeing as how this town's demographics aren't friendly to my age group.  the number of decent guys is even less optimistic.  that is, unless you want to hang out in the local dive bars every night of the week.  not my style.  what people don't understand, well-intentioned as they may be, is that i am happy.  sure, i miss my good friends that are south, and i'd love to have a good guy to curl up with in the evenings.  but the past few boys i've spent time with haven't exactly lived up to the standards i'm looking for, even though i thought they were great at the time.  but am i really so desperate as to go to an online dating site like a coworker suggested?  sure, she's heard success stories...and it must work otherwise the sites would shut down...but i'm not willing to give up on the old-fashioned way to meeting a great guy, much less be matched with someone great but then find out they live across the country.  i won't let myself take that path, atleast not this early in life.  i'm really ok being a happy, independent, growing young woman for right now & not having to check in with someone all the time or having to deal with all the drama of being a couple.

for now, life is good!  even if i am a semi-stalker...