i'm sitting here at the house i'm taking care of, with the dogs who drive me crazy but who are precious angels when passed out on the couch by my side, and came across a couple of facebook posts that awhile ago, might have freaked me out.  specifically, my first "ex" is apparently in relationship, and there's been yet ANOTHER engagement (my swim coach from college).  *seriously, if there's another engagement/wedding/baby/etc, i'm going to freak out.  stop growing up, people!!*  but after a double-read, i realized...whatever. and moved on. 

this isn't a normal feeling; i'm usually bugged slightly by news like this, even if it doesn't matter....chalk it up to self-esteem issues?  i don't know, but whatever it is, fewer things have gotten under my skin in the past few months.  and as i'm sitting here, it's a bit of a revelation - i'm content.  the past few days have been great since i haven't been working or doing classwork, so that may be helping the feeling, but even despite those stresses - life is pretty great.

i work with amazing people, i have a fairly stable (albeit insane), supportive family...i love the kids i work with, both high school and swimmers...i may not be in the exact place in life that i'd like, but i'm working towards that still and it's fine because i'm probably not ready for that yet.  despite all the questions from my kids, i'm not married & aren't attached to anyone, but that's ok...i know what i want and i'm not going to settle for less so until some amazing guy(s) start to show up in this po-dunk little town, i'm happy with less drama & emotional confusion in my life.  things poolside have been a little more flirty the past few days (i think), but honestly i'm just thankful for someone who makes me laugh on a daily basis. 

i'm looking forward to celebrating the holidays with my family and ending this crazy year; 2012 holds so many unimaginable adventures and possibilities that i can only hope to explore.  cheers!