maybe i'm saying this only because i'm still a) in school, b) single, & c) living in my parents' house at 25. woot. definitely didn't see this as part of the plan when i was in high school...
even worse, i didn't see waking up on a saturday morning and mom slipping in a brief comment about an old coworker's renter who is apparently very nice & did i want to them to pass on my number to him? ...as i was rushing out the door to grab coffee before coaching swim practice. not how i wanted to start my day. i appreciate everyone's concern, and there have been several guys coworkers & family have thought of to set me up with, but honestly - i have little interest.
especially now, when my interest lies with someone else...it's about all i can do to stop myself from screaming, "shut up! i'm hopelessly enamored with coach & don't want any one else!" but, for the sake of reducing the number of awkward conversations i'd likely have, that information remains secret.
i'm also not feeling the love from mom in regards to being in ktn - last night as i was watching oregon get out-played by stanford (yet another vain attempt at watching, understanding, & ultimately enjoying football - not at allllllllll influenced by coach ;) ), she said something about wishing i'd move back down to oregon. not that she didn't want me here, but that i enjoyed it so much. it's not the first time she's said that this year either, but i don't get what her deal is...yes, i love oregon. it possesses a special place in my heart. but, if i where to move back, what would i be moving back FOR? i wouldn't be able to find a decent job b/c the market still sucks; a good deal of the people i considered close friends no longer live there so the good memories i have aren't replicable; and i love shopping too much to afford living in the real world where they have malls. i'm fine with going down for a visit every so often when needed, just wish i could afford the flight more often than once a year. but overall, there isn't enough to pull me back down - at least for the time being. some day, if the timing was right, i would move back; of all the states, it's by far my favorite. but not now...
what i'm going to try & keep in mind for now, despite being young(ish), single, & not making much progress in life, is this:
i know exactly how you feel megan! i swear everytime i sign into facebook someone is engaged, having babies or married... it's crazy! and i completely understand about moving back to oregon, i'm in the same boat. i just trying to figure out the next step to take! taking it one day at a time. :)
ReplyDeletesooo glad you understand! nearly bought a plane/ferry ticket this morning & was about to drop life as it is & roadtrip until i felt like stopping... good luck on your decisions - maybe we'll both end up back in OR after all; wouldn't that be a circuitous turn of events! :)
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